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In each relationship, it's about balancing the closeness you have with that person to reap the maximum net happiness or hurt caused.

Thanks Mum, for the birds' nest. It really pains me to see how guilty you are because you feel you're not providing enough. You are. We're both old enough and sensible enough to take care of ourselves and put the needs of the family before our own. Whenever something happens to you, I can't help but wish I could freeze time so we could all stay here in this moment. I can't deal with loss, not anymore.

No more heartfelt conversations with you. No hard feelings but I'm done with knowing about your life.

From tomorrow, I live my life right.

And hopefully, I'll stop saying it.

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It's really quite amazing the difference in the way you treat us. I'm not sure I'd rather be the more loved child if simply staying out late (11plus) would justify hearing such harsh words and rude tone of voice over the phone. Do and say whatever you want. To think you could still say things like "no wonder Dad would...", I just resisted the urge to say "no wonder Bro would...".
Try me.

I feel like saying, it's okay, go on that trip yourselves. Does it take you that many years to know that everything comes at a cost? And family bonding doesn't necessarily need an overseas trip. Especially when you can't even afford to pay attention to each other in Singapore.

Honestly, I'm so fed up with needing to destress with this blog, especially when I live with you guys.
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