05

I just want my one last wish to come true. 6 more months. Patience.

04

If there's a choice between disappointing and expected, I wouldn't know which to pick. I don't know what's worse, not feeling that heart thumping feeling when we meet everyday or feeling that today is just another day. I just couldn't resist hearing: ~ I was the man who never lied I never lied until today But I just couldn't break your heart Like you did mine yesterday~ To a certain extent, I didn't even feel like I was sad or anything. Just that, this is my second EVER Valentine's Day spent with someone special. And I could barely force a smile onto my face. It's alright. Anything, any pain any suffering, if my that one wish would come true.

03

Found myself at your door, Just like all those times before, I’m not sure how I got there, All roads they lead me here. I imagine you are home, In your room, all alone, And you open your eyes into mine, And everything feels better, Right before your eyes, I’m breaking and fast, No reasons why, Just you and me. This is the last time I’m asking you this, Put my name on the top of your list, This is the last time I’m asking you why, You break my heart in the blink of an eye. You find yourself at my door, Just like all those times before, You wear your best apology, But I was there to watch you leave, And all the times I let you in, Just for you to go again, Disappear when you come back, Everything is better. When right before your eyes, I’m aching, run fast, Nowhere to hide, Just you and me…

02

It's their house. It's their right. Don't expect things to go your way because you're not who you think you are to them. But guess what? That has its benefits too. You're not. You're not. But one day, you can leave and leave with any worries or regrets. Nobody can expect to count on you cause they didn't prove themselves when you wanted to count on them. Put your head, heart and soul into people and things you care about. One day, they'll just prove to be a waste of head, heart and soul. You know what, expectations lead to effort which leads to failure and disappointment. Go with people and things that you know you can trust and rely on. Sometimes, there's only one. And for the rest, why even bother talking to them, replying any extra words/sentences. Give them what they deserve. They certainly didn't bother to give you any better. Maybe, just maybe, this would teach them to treat their other child right. Some things, you cherish only after you lose.

01

After all this, it still came down to you. I don't know why. I don't need all these people. They don't even care anyway. Well, I guess somethings are easier said than done. I need something to aim for in life. Grades? Passion? Position? I don't know. Just something can won't ever, ever let me down. Ever. Other than you, I don't know if I can even find something even close. You know what? It's like there's something in me that feels like letting all these go. Just one day, one week. Not giving a shit about anything and just do whatever I want. Go places that I really want to go to. Somewhere I can truly feel happy. You think I want to care so much about him? I care, he says I shouldn't. I don't, he asks why didn't I. I miss you. I really do. Sometimes, I give up on everyone and everything, I think about you. And well, I can't be here without you today.